What am I doing?

I finally started to venture into the other categories of the arts as in actual art, modeling and writing. I've alway have been interested in acting and I've been doing that for almost seven years. I decided to try something new so instead of just one thing why not try everything. Photography, singing, and make up are not my strong points from what I clearly discovered but now I am exploring other aspects.
     Ever since 9th grade I have been writing and now I actually feel like I can present more of my work. Why? I have no idea but it just seems like something I should do now that I'm in STAC. I write poetry and I have some short stories that I have presented but they aren't great I feel. I have so much to learn but I don't know if writing is for me. I have to many ideas to just sit there and focus on one project, but if I start to many I will get overwhelmed. Also I have a habit of writing something, hating it, and trowing it out because I feel like it is horrible. Then there is my spelling and grammar which is absolutely horrible but thank the lord for spell check and someone I call a mother who is a lawyer.
     Recently I mean like one month ago I was having a fun day with my friend Vika and we discovered that I can draw. It wasn't a first, when I was younger I would always draw and I took every art class in school so I've always been invested in art. For christmas Vika really being the amazing friend she was got me oil paint. I got some canvases and experimented and I had so much fun. Painting is so relaxing and it really got me to focus. I think I want to try to paint more and experiment with art just a little more. All thanks to my lovely friend that supports me and I support her. Go check out her blog because she is absolutely amazing at art.
    Then there was one more left, modeling. Last year I did this program called Barbazon and when you join you give permission for the company to market you're face. The program sent my pictures out and what do you know I got a letter in the mail from Miss New York Teen USA to join there pageant so I decided why not. This photo company that works with Vogue and Donald Trump came and did a photo shoot for all the kids who needed head shots. My head shots were a year old so I decided to take new photos (best decision ever). The company took my photos and they are sending them out everywhere like Vogue and they want me to come back for a second photo shoot which is amazing and I am so excited for it.
     I feel like I am doing so much at the moment, but at the same time I feel like I am doing nothing. I don't know why but I guess I am just so weird because I am doing so much on top of the Spring Play that my teacher is directing. Now that I'm writing all of this out I change my mind about two things. One I am doing so much and maybe for right now I should narrow it down to two or three things. Second is that I do know what I am doing and it is to discover what I am capable of and what I enjoy. If I am not into something or I am done with a project or an activity it becomes obvious with me. I will either not do it or procrastinate so bad it just doesn't become a priority. I definitely have to work on that because I can't always pick and choose what I want to be done with so I'm working on that but, until next time.